It Hurts!

Today is the last day of May, which is Mental Health Awareness month. And honestly, I’ve tried to avoid this entry all month because I did not want to address it. However, God reminded me that I promised you all that I would be vulnerable….

I sometimes battle with depression and anxiety. So much so that my therapist suggested that I think about taking medication. Yeah, you read that right, I started seeing a therapist, which was one of the best decisions I have ever made. I’ll probably discuss that more in a later blog seeing as how there are more pressing things to discuss now.

This year has been hard. With COVID-19 and police brutality getting worse, it’s a blessing if you can sleep through the night. People are dying left and right. Some are dying just for the color of their skin. And it hurts! Social media is now filled with comments of hate and judgment. Pictures and videos of the tragedies that have taken place are constantly replayed over and over. And it hurts! It hurts as Black woman. It hurts as a United States citizen. And it definitely hurts as a Kingdom citizen. It hurts!

As if my mind and thoughts weren’t already hard to control, recent events have certainly taken them to another level. Seeing the world as it is is heartbreaking to me. I know it will never be sunshine and rainbows all the time, but pure hatred of this magnitude is a tough pill to swallow. Prayer is needed more than ever. 2nd Chronicles states, “if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land”. God has told us what to do, but the church has to come together to do it. People are soo mad right now that they can’t be humble themselves, and they feel like praying isn’t helping, which a lie! Prayer changes things! And now I find myself praying more than ever because I’m tired of all the hurt people hurting people. It HURTS!